• Anyone who saw my reaction to today's events probably will believe that I may have overreacted, that I took to heart every incident and error that occurred.
  • Not that this isn't true, but this is not a simple bad day. This is the result of an accumulation of days similar to this, in minimal amounts. For the last semester or so, it's become a constant cycle of mistakes and chastising. Every time yet another classic screwup of mine occurs, there's me to fill my head with a type of self loathing that I've never felt so strongly. I get so angry, almost in disbelief, of my own stupidity. I separate myself from it and my only way of doing that is to sleep. That's my way of running away from things. Because sleep lets you put off everything else. Sleep doesn't let you screw up, sleep is always right and always perfect. This is probably the strangest post I've made but it needs not explanation because this is purely for myself. I hit the point today where I realized I have so much anger I should at least put the words down on paper. So much anger I run away from myself. Its not even about engineering, I don't think I'm fit for any of this. Maybe making it this far was a lucky shot because I'm surrounded by amazing people who help me. Who am I without any of that?
  • I don't anyone to tell me otherwise about what I'm about to say, if anyone does read it, just because I have to say it and that's my opinion and I have to get it out. I'm a terrible student. I'm not someone who should be in a position to handle more than academics because I can't handle it solely. I shouldn't have run for vice president, because I can't even handle my own life. I look around and I realize maybe everyone else thinks so too. Their vote was an irreversible mistake and it's too late now for anyone to change that.
  • If it wasn't such a drastic thing to do, I would distance myself from people for a while, because I need it. Because it would be my punishment, I carry on because I'm surrounded by people who I seriously am blessed to know. I don't want to make anyone disappointed. But lately it's been a constant explosion of disappointments. In the end I've chosen a social life over everything else and that can only keep you happy until you realize you're only average at everything when you're on your own.
  • I don't even know if I should post this at this point. I just don't want to talk about it, this is just me needing to let it all out. I don't need to be soothed, I just need to make myself aware that maybe this has gone too far in terms of the being angry at oneself department.
  • That is all. It is 5: 30am and I am waking up 8am. But if anything this makes me feel better, because I worked this late to finish homework, unlike my usual inability to work through the night for my schoolwork.
thatwanderinglonewolf:

Wolf (by Pie the cat)

pupside down

pupside down

(Source: irerisitahiri)

digg:

BREAKING: DISNEYLAND NO LONGER HAPPIEST PLACE ON EARTH

thewolfnature:

Lone wolf. Passion.

thewolfnature:

Lone wolf. Passion.

foreveralone-lyguy:

Dont make eye contact or you’ll have to battle

foreveralone-lyguy:

Dont make eye contact or you’ll have to battle

(Source: goomyplz)

nessuno:

thelegendofben:

hogglette:

oh hey link what’s up little guy

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you don’t look so hot. you have a headache?

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well let’s take a look see

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holy shit

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holy SHIT

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it’s a boy. omg i’m a grandma

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i’m so proud

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wat

whAT

(Source: porcupet)

thecutestofthecute:

Puppies with pacifiers

microsoftpussy:

INSTASLEEPIN


That made me laugh way too much

microsoftpussy:

INSTASLEEPIN

That made me laugh way too much

(Source: woodmeat)